The End Of 2014

As 2014 comes to an end I find myself looking back on what has gone on in my life. I made a GREAT friend that lives in a different country then I do. Taz has become one of my best friends. She has gotten me through some really hard times. There are so many new friends I have made through out this year too. I have been to KallypsoCon and helped with it even!!!! Talk about cool. I have had sugery on my knee it has been hell and has gotten better and now starting to hurt again. LOL My oldest daughter is in the 1st grade. I have lost a friend I had for 22 years in a car accident and I have decided to start school come the new year.
Taz what can I say about her. She is my British twin through and through. She has helped me along with my Hubby through a death that hit me so very hard. She has been there when I have been mad, sad, happy and crazy tired. She has 3 kids to my 2 but they all act like each other. The crazy thing is that out of everyone in this whole world we found each other. We found another person that thinks and acts the same. HAHAHAHA I am now helping her through a death in her family. But that is what we do, we are there for each other, its how we roll.
My book this year have been my safe haven I guess is what you could call it. I have been doing soooo much more with it. I NEVER thought I would be one of those lucky people that get to know the authors that they read and love. I have had a book dedicated to me by one of my favorites. That just blew me away. Then when I took a closer look I have my name in the dedication in a couple other books by another author that I love so much. I have spent a weekend with 5 authors of BDSM erotica books. Man was that a fun and crazy weekend. I got to be the PA for Annabel Joseph. I have gotten into beta reading and I am an admin for a author street team room on Facebook. I have come to love making teasers for there books and they love that I do it for them and ask nothing in return. I never could the fact that I get the chance to do something like this may not be a big thing to others but to me it is so crazy.
This past year my knee pain had gotten out of control. When I got to that breaking point I talked to my doc and got the call rolling on what I could do for it. Well….. surgery is what I was told. So come the end of May I went in and had my knee done. Man it puffed up big time after that. Had it drained after about a week and they took 2oz of fluid out of my knee that day. OMG that was so much pain. But in time it did finally get better. But now coming to the end of the year it is acting up again. I dont know if I can go through all of this again. The pain gets so bad but we will see what happens.
I have two beautiful little girls and my oldest is in the 1st grade and my youngest will be 4 next month. Kendall (The Oldest) has been having her moments. It might just be that she is half way through a two week winter brake.She is also getting more time with her friends and I think trying to show off. What ever it is I am trying to nip it in the butt now before it gets worse. Jaz is acting worse then her older sister. OMG she looks so sweet but she is so mean. I am about at my end with her. I just don’t know what else I can do. I am hoping to get her acting better in this new year.
Ok so I had a friend that I have known for about 90% of my life, 22 years. She was the kind of person that had a huge heart and would do anything she could to help out a friend. It was the first time I had to go back to the area that I grew up at and didn’t want to be there. It was one of the hardest things I had to do. I mean really how do you say goodbye to a friend that was only 31 years old. Roads are slick when it rains out where I grew up. Most kids that grow up in the middle of know where learn the roads so well they can drive them with there eyes closed so she should have known what she was doing but SOMETHING happened. As you can tell I am still not dealing all that well with it.
I am going back to school. OMG it is only on line but still I am so freaked and excited. I know this is the right step for me. I cant keep doing these dead end teen jobs any more. I need something that I am going to enjoy and that is going to bring more money in. With two kids and only my Hubby working it is really hard on us. I am tired of not doing anything other then taking care of our apartment and our kids. I know it is a great thing to do as a mommy but I want to work too. One step at a time. That is all I can really do.
Before I take off to dream land here in just a few since in is 1230 am. I am so thankful this year for my loving Hubby who is also my best friend and the love of my life. Daddy takes care of me and does everything he can for myself and our girls. He is one of the best men I know and I am so very proud to be his wife. He works so hard for us and loves us so much. I could never thank him enough for what he does and the support that he gives me. Every crazy idea I try he is always right there standing next to me cheering me on.
Ok so I am getting really tired right now so I am going to head off to bed. I am going to try and blog more in 2015. Not to sure how it will go but I think writing more will help me out. Good night lovies stay safe. xoxo

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